pagibignijeph

hi friends! yup, i moved to windows live spaces: http://pagibignijeph.spaces.live.com.

kindly update your links haha.. thanks!=)

anggaling.=)

hindi na kami nakapag-out of town haha.. instead, nag-anniversary sportsfest na lang kami. well, parang lang.. we started our day with swimming (actually, eating haha) at club manila east, tapos billiards and bowling at xybrbowl, then golf (haha gulf-gulf-gulf) at our friend's place. sobrang nakakapagod at sobra sobrang saya.=) happy anniversary to us!!! some pics:

at club manila east:



at don hen:

halatang magaling nako. hindi nako mshadong nageenglish e hahaha.. at masaya na ulit ako. sipon na lang pero at least wala nakong lagnat chaca konting ubo na lang. hay salamat talaga. malapit na anniv ko noh, yoko nang magkasakit! hehe..

good things have been happening today. nawala na lagnat ko, pati ubo ko mjo nawawala na, nakatulog ako ng mahimbing nung hapon (hindi ko tuloy napansin ym ni jeph hehe). bukod pa dun, pinayagan ako ni malou na CDO sa friday! at mas maganda pa dun, pinayagan din si jeph magleave sa friday!! wohoo! anniversary nato haha.. so happy again.=)

he came last night at around 9:30pm. we had dinner together, and for the first time the whole day, i ate normally. normally meaning a lot. a LOT. for one and a half hours, i was so happy i didn't mind coughing all the time.=)

now i'm back at the office. i can't stay home anymore. i feel weaker at home, as if i can't do anything but lie down in bed, sleep, eat, drink medicine. i need to feel that i'm strong enough to do the things i normally do.

only three days left til our second anniversary. no plans yet, but we're thinking of going out of town.=)

we went to the hospital last night and now i have to drink a lot of medicine. drugs. i hate being sick. i really really do. i can't play bowling, i can't go to the gym, i can't work at the office, i can't even sleep. but i can eat. i can always eat.

and now i'm sleepy. again. i'm always sleepy, but it's just that everytime i close my eyes, i cough. this is so stressful. i'm tired. i'm tired of trying to sleep. but i want to sleep. badly. i need to sleep. so i'm going to try to sleep now.

and so he didn't come. but he is jeph. and i just can't stay mad with the man i love. so i called him. i called him again and again until we were ok. i know deep inside that i should have waited for him to be the first one to call. but i don't care anymore. i don't care who makes the first move. what's important is that i hear his voice, we resolve our issues, and everything becomes better.

like i said, life is short. so break the rules, forgive quickly, believe slowly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, and never regret anything that made you happy.

it's too early to be online, but i'm online anyway. being sick sucks. i'm a very active person and i hate being sick. i love to go out, do the most i can for the day. but now i'm sick and i can't do that. and it really sucks.

plus, i have to wake up every now and then to eat something so that i can drink my medicine. and getting sleep when you're sick isn't easy. so now, i have to wait for sleep to come to me again.

besides sleep, i'm waiting for something else. someone else. i waited last night but not even a call came. i'm waiting again today and i'm really hoping he would come. i know he would.

fairytales make people believe in happily ever after. they usually end with prince charming and princess getting married. but we don't really know what happens after that marriage. we don't know if they really stay that happy.

when we were kids, we would always dream of growing up to be like the princess. we dream of meeting prince charming, getting married, living happily ever after. but what we didn't know is that happily ever after doesn't really mean "happy always never sad ever after".

i believed in fairytales. i believed that there would be someone who would treat me like a princess forever. the truth is that these princess moments only last for a while. we can't expect them to last forever. we want them to, but they just don't.